My beta fish is struggling. He is starting to be unable to control himself physically. He rolls into a floating position every once in a while. I am upset about him. I feel like we are on the beta deathwatch.
He has the white mark of trouble on his fin. I have tried three different kinds of ‘medicine’ for it to no avail. There is never much that can be done for a fish.
While searching for another brand of beta medicine, the person working at the pet shop said that three years is a long life for a beta fish, as if I should be happy he lasted so long. I still wish that there was more that I could do. It is hard to watch him struggle and do nothing.
My shamanic teacher always says sometimes it is their time to go. Despite what I wrote about Bill, I wish there was someway to stop this process and help my fish. There may be a lovely warm pond up in the sky for him but I am not ready to let him go. That sounds really selfish. Also, if he dies, what do I do with the snails who live in his bowl? They came with the live plant I got from the expensive retail pet shop.
