Seeking Answers

Patty and I went to Gay City State Park. I was told to use Jaguar to guide me but I just wanted to look for any part of the landscape that looked like my picture.

When I told Patty about Janice Pocket, she also had the impression that the killer drove around in a large four-door car. She had other insights as well.

She went in the main entrance and over to the clump of rocks by the front gate. “I feel like… she (Janice Pocket) was buried under their noses. She was right in front of them and they couldn’t see her. They couldn’t see her-like the forest for the trees.” That made us think that the killer was a person that the police would not suspect, or would trust.

We walked a while and then both felt the need to go to the left at the same time. We walked and could have turned to the left again; I felt the need to walk straight to a point marked by a rock on right. I have a strong pull to the spot. Don’t know why. I need to figure out what to do next.

Patty wanted to walk to the clump of rocks on the incline to the left. She sat down. She began to talk. The rocks told her that the killer had hit the girl with one of them. He had laid her against them while digging her grave.

Patty got the input that:

a.) It gave the murderer joy to have her in his control, under his power.

b.) He had driven around with her in his trunk of a large car for a while, maybe even days.

(I told her that I thought she was dead and buried within the first 12 hours. She said that that was possible. He held her for a while- but that could have meant that he really enjoyed his time with her and it was only for 40 minutes. Still, she could be totally right that he drove around with a little girl for days. Psychics all see different aspects of things as if tuning into different radio frequencies and getting different stations.)

c.) He had a familiarity with the law that helped him manage, clean up a crime site. That kept him out of suspicion.

d.) Patty felt that he had drugged (put a cloth over her mouth) the little girl to keep her quiet. She had a sense that Janice had really made a lot of noise.

According to the rocks, others were buried here also. Other murders had occurred here as well.

If it seems strange to think of rocks communicating, know that elements of nature are interrelated. We are linked by the same energy. Also, according to them, there was a time that the rocks were alone and ruled the world.

Seeking Guidance, Using Jaguar, Overcoming Fear

I called my shamanic teacher about the missing girl, Janice Pocket. I asked her if she got any impressions from the pictures I was given. She did not.

She felt that there was a detective in his 40’s that might be interested in this information who had not yet heard it. She suggested that I call the Cold Case Office and try to find him.

As a shaman, she suggested that I go the park where I think that Janice is buried and use Jaguar to see if I can sniff out or track the body. Jaguar is a shamanic animal which protects our medicine space. He is also a hunter. He can smell what information I need. Jaguar could possibly lead me to right to where the body is located.

I am struck with incredulity but willing to try. Actually, I really want to find another psychic to confirm or add to my findings. I said that I would try dragging another shaman in training to the park.

My shaman-sage-teacher said it is good to go with someone, not alone. ‘There are things which can be picked up in the woods.’ She believes that it is best to not give attention or energy to negative or lower vibration things so she never explains them. I am always curious about what she does not tell me (what could possibly be in the woods???????) but when I ask, I get no answer.

I went to look at a rental property for a shop. The landlord asked what I expected to make in gross profit for my first year. I looked at him blankly like a cow in the field, then like a deer in headlights. Someone starting a business should probably have ideas about that. It is embarrassing to not know, especially to someone who was always the good student.

Sage advice or discouraging words?

A friend spent two hours trying to scare me about opening a shop. I have been terrified for two years so she had nothing new to say just experience to back up her words. She was scary.

To distract her, I told her about Janice Pocket. She was unfamiliar with the case. As I told her that I had the impression someone was buried at Gay City State Park, she agreed. Unfortunately, she said she had a strong feeling that it is not Janice but someone else.

She suggested we find a psychic who might be able to confirm more. I don’t have many professional psychics on my personal Rolodex.

Seeking financing

I am not very happy in my current job. That is not unusual but I hate it for myself. I have loved going to work and I miss that. I work with people who would sell a family member for a $5 commission.

Two years ago, I took a jewelry making class for fun. I really enjoyed it. During the class, others began to sit next to me to copy my designs. Since then, I have been buying beads, gemstones and other jewelry making components for a hobby gone wild.

Going to the area mega mart hobby stores has been a depressing experience in being taken monetarily for cheap quality beads. This has led me to go to bead shows where I spend more than I should, but they are artist dates (The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron) where I come back with all kinds of necklace and earring ideas. I do not know what is out there, and possible until I see it. (I do not know what I don’t know and that limits my idea of what could be.) Finding beads and rocks leads to the idea of what is possible for pendants, earrings and necklaces…..

On January 1, I woke with the message, ‘sell beads.’ I assume the idea is that I could successfully sell beads and jewelry making components. Someone must think that I could make money at this.

As I read about starting new businesses, I see a lot of warnings about 60+% of all new businesses failing. My intuition started this. If I act on faith, I have to assume that someone thinks I could succeed at this, unless it is my karmic lesson to fail…. Actually, I have found lots of beautiful beads in places that are not available in my area so there is a niche.

To start a business, you need to write a business plan. It needs to be well researched and thought out in solid financial details. I am starting out with, “my intuition tells me so” and “I am waiting for more details to surface.” I can hear a banker laughing in the distance.

Cash flow is an issue for start up businesses. Borrowing money is done. I can’t go to a bank and say, ‘I have this idea… my intuition says it will work…trust me….give me lots of money.’

Worrying about finding money last Monday… I got a flash of intuition. ‘Borrow from your retirement fund’ (Susie Ormond would definitely disagree and I respect her greatly). Hmm. The number $10,000 popped in there as a detail.

I ran it by some people who hated the idea. My beloved quoted Susie Ormond. I hate him for actually hearing me.

Yesterday, I got another flash of intuition. ‘Call retirement fund’ which I did. They didn’t even ask why I wanted the money (I love TIAA-CREF). I am now about to receive $9000 this upcoming Monday. That was way too easy. In fact, I do not think that they should let anyone borrow that much money that easily…. But I have to assume that this is a good sign.

An adventure begins, one that I did not see coming.

Anger

In talking with my co-worker with her heart problem, she mentioned an anger problem. I experience her as a very calm person, so I didn’t believe her about the anger issue. I actually think of her as a lover not a fighter, but we are only on an acquaintance basis with many co-workers. I am wondering about the connection between anger and heart ailments.

In a study of cancer survivors, they found that people who complained about food, service or anything else were more likely to survive than those who did not complain. That is not a quantifiable statistic, more an anecdotal observation. Another observation could be that complainers did not swallow their irritation or anger. In polite society, it is not a nice person who is considered a complainer but it is a person who takes care of their needs.

I work with two very angry men, both of whom have had heart bypass surgery. Both could be considered toxic people. Is it your fault if you have heart problems? No. The heart problems are a sign of what anger and other strong emotions can do to the body physically. For some reason, anger seems to affect the heart.

TV Watching

Came home to find my beloved watching "Tyranasaurus Sex" on the Discovery Channel. According to a researcher, Tyranasaurus sex led to Tyranasaurus Rex.

Intuition- to Listen or not Listen

There was a forecast of snow showers. That seems innocuous enough. I live in New England where snow can fall by the inches!
By 3pm, the Sun was shining, the roads were clear and it seemed like a beautiful day. It snowed again at 5pm, and then the temperature dropped.
On my way home at 6pm, the roads were coated with a layer of ice where they hadn’t put down salt. I stepped out onto ice.
As I waited for my car to warm up, I saw a picture of a back road, not the highway. I didn’t want to go the long way across back roads!!!!! It would only take ten minutes to drive on the highway…
I went on the back roads wondering if they had been as salted as the highway should be. I crept along on an icy road behind others. Ice is bad but I fear others and their need to endanger others. I was cranky after thirty minutes. A ten-minute drive took forty-five minutes! I kept thinking I could have my feet up on the couch if I had taken the highway.
On the highway overpass, I looked over to see why I was told not to take the highway. It was a mess! People were creeping along there with their blinkers on. There were cars in more lanes than the 3 lanes on the highway. The radio confirmed that there with multiple accidents. Suddenly, I was thankful to NOT be on the highway!! (Sorry for doubting!) Thank you!