Bill II

When I went back to work on April 12, I asked if there had been any news from Bill’s family. There is not. But I did find out that Bill broke ribs, his collar bone and developed water on the brain as a result of his fall. His neighbor had been back in to the store and says Bill’s brother has been on vacation and returns this weekend.

I asked my spirit guides for help going to meet Bill. Instead of my planning a journey, I asked them to help me. I began to walk…. In a frozen snowy field. Several wolves ran along side me on either side of the path. (I have seen them for many years and assumed that they were dogs.) I asked about some medicine animals accompanying me and asked, “Wolf?” Heard nothing. “Bear?” Still no reply.

Then, I heard, “Yak.” A yak was the medicine animal this time. I do not know what they do or symbolize. I am not going to lie. I do not know a ---- thing about them. I like yaks and even have a yak bell, but I am clueless as to what they look like.

‘Himalayas- mountains’ occurred to me. I look up and see mountains. Snowy peaks greet me. Next thing, I am wearing warm clothes and am walking up hill. I do not see how I am going to see, find or talk to Bill like this. This feels off the wall.

Snow begins to fall. There is a flurry of it in my face. I think of Bill and he appears before me in a parka with a furry collar. Snow flurries between us. I don’t think that I will be able to hear him.

He is in front of me but because of the snow, I do not see his eyes as clearly. As a result, I wonder about my impression of his perfect mental clarity that I had prior. It is like I am actually talking to him in a snowstorm somewhere.

“Bill, how are you?”

“Doing as well as can be expected,” he replies.

I do not want to say anything wrong after last time. I do not know what to say. I ask, “How are you feeling?”

“I am ready for sun,” he said. He nods as if with certainty. “I am ready to stand in the sun.”

I think that this desire for a change, and to stand in the sun is a good sign. “Is there anything I can do to help?”

He smiles and says, “You have done enough already.” This is why I love this man. I have done absolutely NOTHING for him and he can say that. Also he says it so graciously like he truly means it.

“Bill, your sister is saying that you are going to be ok.”

“She does that,” he replied.

I am silent to avoid saying anything wrong. I wish that I could say something meaningful, but I can think of nothing.

Bill continues, “I want to- I want to see my brother one more time.”

We don’t say much else. As I wait for something to happen or words to come to me, Bill and I grow distant as space jumps between us.

This time, I see a horse and rider encircle him. I notice the gait on the horse; it is light and graceful with a pretty step. This is probablyan expensive horse. I wonder if he and the horse have any connection.

Next, I realize that there is an intensity to the gaze of the rider of the horse towards Bill. Is it a man or a woman? This person is fiercely guarding Bill, probably has been for some time. As I wonder about the sex of the rider, I see gold highlights on a brown ponytail.

Afterwards, I began to conclude that the person is a woman. There is a woman waiting for Bill on the other side. This is not a family member. She loves him very much, with a burning romantic intensity….

Ok, what do I know?!! It could be a family member. This could be his mother on the horse. I sense intensity. Family members feel like comforting warmth. This feels like a burning intensity-something I personally have not experienced. The feeling is so intense that I feel like something really good awaits Bill.